7 weeks

I wish it was more like 17 or 27 weeks, but I will just enjoy this journey. We had our first ultrasound on Wednesday! It was so awesome. First, we see this huge black empty sac which I guess in the gestational sac. Then we got to see our little munchkin. They checked for a twin, but there was no evidence of another baby. I thought I would be sad if there weren't twins, but I actually felt a little relieved. It was so surreal seeing that little baby inside of me. I have waited almost 3.5 years (or really my entire life) to see that. I was 6 weeks and 5 days along and the baby measured 6 weeks and 1 day but they said it was totally fine. It is 4.64 mm and it's crazy how such a little thing can make me so sick. We even got to see the little heartbeat. That was what made me cry. It was racing at 125 bpm. It was such a wonderful feeling to know that this is real. I think I cried 15 times on Wednesday just thinking about it.
They also checked my ovaries and my right ovary has 9 cysts still from the retrieval and the left has 2 cysts. She said they are still swollen and will be for another couple of months.
We finally told D's family. Everybody was so excited for us and so supportive. We really are lucky to have so many people surrounding us who love us so much.
I asked the doctor for a prescription for the morning sickness and he gave me these pills that you put on your tongue and it just dissolves. It is a lifesaver. I still feel a little icky, but no nausea and no throwing my guts up. Amazing. I don't know why more women don't take it. They said there is virtually no side effects and completely safe for baby. I feel like I eat all the time. I just eat every couple of hours so when I do eat, I don't eat much. And I think due to a lack of working out and still having swollen ovaries, I feel like a chubby version of me. Maybe it's just in my head but I don't really think so.
I want to end on a happy note. This week, my baby will double in size and be the size of a blueberry. Awww :)

Morning sickness???

I am 6 weeks along as of yesterday. Yesterday, I slept in until 10:30! I just did not feel 100%. My stomach kept turning and I felt dizzy. Not nauseous really, just dizzy and walking around made it worse. We had plans with some friends to go to dinner then a rodeo and I didn't really want to bail. I decided to go to dinner then see how I felt. After dinner, I was actually feeling pretty good!
Today, the same thing happened. I thought it might just be in my head but I actually threw up a little today. Although I felt pretty crappy, I got a little excited! Me getting sick means I'm actually pregnant and the baby is growing! I can't believe I'm pregnant! So I have been laying on the couch the last two day straight feeling like crap but its ok because I'm pregnant!!!

I did it

I cried at a commercial. A diaper commercial! Usually, I would be a little bitter or jealous, but I cried out of happiness! What's happening to me?

603

That was my second beta number last Monday. They said it was a great number. I get my first ultrasound on the 24th then a week later, on the 31st, we go to the obgyn. I'm kind of sad to be leaving the fertility clinic because everybody there has been so great. On the other hand, moving to the obgyn is kind of like graduating! I could have a normal pregnancy like the rest of the fertiles out there!
I haven't really had many pregnancy symptoms except for the fact that when I am hungry, I'm starving! I guess I'm only 5 weeks so it's not like I'll be having huge symptoms yet.
The progesterone shots are killing me. Both of my hips have knots and bruises all over them. Obviously, I am not planning on swimming any time soon. They also itch sometimes and hurt so bad that I can't lay on my sides. They said that at my next appointment on the 24th, they will start to wean me off the progesterone, so I can't wait for that. They are by far the most painful of the shots I've done to this point. I just keep telling myself it is all worth it.

Happiness hit her like a train on a track

I love Florence and the Machine and all day today I just have the song in my head "Dog Days are Over". I know I should be happy all the time, but yesterday's news has hit me like nothing else. I took a home pregnancy test today just to make sure it was still true. It was not just a faint line, it was an obvious positive! I can't believe it. I have never felt this happy before, except for my wedding day. I am the luckiest person in the whole world today.

Holy Guacamole!!!

I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!

I just found out today but I didn't want to forget this day so I wanted to write down how everything happened today.
I was so nervous last night that I didn't sleep at all. I mean probably less than an hour of sleep. D had to work this morning so around 8:30 I headed to get my blood taken for the pregnancy test. I didn't take one home pregnancy test because I knew it would mess with my head. When I was sitting there in the waiting room, it was all I could do to not cry. I have never been that nervous in my entire life.
While the nurse was taking my blood she said they had 30 pregnancy tests that day! She said that they get the test results back around 1:30 but don't worry if they don't call right away. Of course I couldn't concentrate on anything today so I just came home and took a nap for a little bit. Then, I was watching Roseanne reruns because nothing is on TV during the day. Then it came: the call. Peter was on the phone with somebody and I yelled at him to hang up and get over here. I picked up the phone and
the nurse said: Elizabeth?
me: yes
nurse: Congratulations! You're pregnant!!!
I immediately just put my hand over my mouth and started crying. About a minute later, I said: "Ok. Now what?" She said they look for a beta number over 50 and mine was 199! I go in for a second blood test Monday to make sure the number is still going up. Then, when I am 7.5 weeks along (I'm 2 weeks along right now), I go in for a sonogram! I'm really hoping for twins, but I will be happy either way.
After we hung up the phone, I just sat there crying with D and saying "oh my gosh" over and over. Finally, I had to call my mom. I was still crying so when I said, "Mom," she was like, "oh no, what's wrong?" Then I just said, "You're going to be a grandma!" She was crying and screaming and yelling at my dad and grandma (they are in California with my grandma right now) to come over to the phone. Everybody was crying and yelling and it was awesome. I talked to both of my brothers and everybody was just so excited. My family has been with us every step of the way during this IVF process so it was nice to celebrate with my family. We also prayed to thank our Heavenly Father for the great news.
I called my one other friend who has struggled with fertility and been with me every step of the way. She started crying and celebrating with me and it was just so great to share that moment with somebody else who knows how it feels to be in this kind of situation.
I hadn't been able to eat all day so I cleaned the running mascara off of my face and we went to celebrate at Chili's. Yeah, we're high class. About half way through my meal, I realized how tired I was. I went home and took a 2 hour nap. I could finally sleep. I have to admit that I have cried on and off all day now.
I still can't believe it! I don't feel pregnant. Whatever that feels like. I can't help but be so freaking excited. Everything was worth it. I know I shouldn't count my chickens quite yet, but I can't help it. I don't really know what to do now, but I'm so excited to start a family. I have the greatest husband and family and now my dream has come true! I can't believe it. I am the luckiest girl in the world.