Shit.

I am not (normally) somebody who cusses but it is only 10:15 and that is the only word I can use for today. Yesterday, we got some bad news about the business (nothing REALLY bad, but just a bunch of stuff we have to pay). This morning, I went in to get a pregnancy test (I started two days ago but they said I have to get one even if I already started my period) and when I told them I started, they said I didn't need one. The nurse just asked if I wanted to do treatment again this month and I said yes (remember: we only have health insurance until July 25, almost exactly 4 months from now). She got me in for a sonogram where the roof basically caved in on me. They will not do treatment if there are any cysts left over from the last treatment that are bigger than 18 cm. (Cysts are just follicles that may or may not have expelled an egg last cycle.) I had one cyst that was 44 cm and one that was 32 cm and about 20 small cysts. So, Dr. said no treatment this cycle and just call him on day one of next month. NEXT MONTH. This means I will only have up to 3 more cycles left while being on insurance! I am completely distraught and pissed. Not really pissed at anybody, just pissed in general. So I am just supposed to do nothing? This was the first cycle with my RE and now I have to wait at least another month? This also means that I will have to buy another gonal-f pen next time because they expire 30 days after opening. Awesome. This is really one of the worst weeks of my life. Everything that could go wrong has. Monday, I thought that things could only get better, but boy was I wrong. Since then, the bad news has just rolled in like the crimson tide staining my life.