Welcome

I started this blog weeks ago but have put off writing anything because I didn't know where to begin. Today, I got my inspiration. For now, this blog is completely private for only my eyes (and the hubby). In the future, I would love to make this blog public so other people can read my story. I have felt for months that I should write my thoughts and feelings down. I started a journal that I fell has greatly helped me through this entire process but the time it takes to sit down and write can be a bit overwhelming. I type much faster than I write so a blog is the obvious choice. I have done a lot of reading lately on other bloggers who are going through similar circumstances to us and I have found almost a sense of support from these anonymous bloggers. Often times I feel very alone in my struggle to fertility but reading what these other women go through has helped me cope and feel like I am not alone. Maybe one day somebody can read my blog and it can help them through a hard time in their life.
Today, I went to the library just to find a fiction book to read. I have never been to my local library although I live about a half of a mile away so I decided to venture upstairs and see what was there. It was a reference section and had pictures of different kinds of books that were in those aisles. I saw the book "What to Expect When You're Expecting" and turned down that aisle. Next to the pregnancy books, I found the book titled, "If at First You Don't Conceive". I decided to pick it up and check it out. Two hours later, I read ever section that pertained to my situation. At first, I got a little sad and Peter suggested that now might not be the best time to read the book. I pushed through the first chapter (The 'what should happen if you are normal' chapter) and I am so glad that I did. The book contained information on each of the medications I am taking, every procedure I have had/will have done, and a lot of helpful information on surviving mentally, emotionally, and financially with infertility. Two suggestions included yoga and writing. Check and check. I love doing yoga and hope to go more often. The writing has slowed down in the past month or so but this blog will hopefully inspire me to do it more regularly.
The title of this blog came from the book. He said that people who struggle with fertility often get the Fertility Crazies. This happens when you and/or your world changes due to infertility. Well, we're officially there people! According to the book, this is completely "normal" but how do you even define normal?
While writing this post, I keep thinking that I can't believe that I am using the word infertility. I never thought this would be a struggle for me, but then again, who does? I have just recently (within the last couple of months) been able to come to terms with the fact that I am officially infertile. It is kind of scary yet liberating to finally put that out there.