We have been married for almost 7 years. We have unexplained infertility. We now have one perfect baby boy and this is our journey.
Monday, March 21, 2011
When it rains, it pours
Today sucks. I hate today. Let's see, I started my period. Two days early. I have cramps from hell (they haven't been this bad in months) and it feels like somebody is tap dancing on my uterus. A bunch of our summer salesmen have "cold feet". Peter goes out of town tomorrow so I'm left dealing with all of this on my own. My throat is sore and even cough drops and water don't relieve the pain. So basically nothing good happened today. I usually try so hard to be positive but today I just failed. I literally spent the entire afternoon in bed because I couldn't get myself up until around 4:30. I felt so good about this IUI and my uterus just punched me in the face. I had the perfect amount of follicles, everything went well! I think Peter feels a little guilty because of the low sperm count but it was barely low. I feel like I'm totally useless as a woman. If I can't even get pregnant, I can't raise kids and what's the point? Can I please get a break? I feel like the entire universe is against me. I know I'm being a Debbie Downer, but I really just want to sleep and wake up in a week.
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