Mock Transfer

Today is our 5 year anniversary! We had to work today but have a fun weekend planned. Thanks to points from our debit cards and some rebates from work, we were able to score a gift card for Morton's Steakhouse and some vouchers for a free couple's massage! We booked this awesome hotel suite at an amazing deal. Our summers are so busy that this is about the time of the summer we start to go crazy and a little get away is much needed.
So to celebrate, we spent an hour and a half at the RE's office! We did a medication consult and that was a little overwhelming. Halfway through talking to the nurse, I was like "Wait, I need a second to process this. This is a lot." She was just talking about it like it was nothing, but she has been doing this for years! This is my first time. The nurse was great, but it was just a lot. Then, we went in for the mock transfer. They basically go in and measure where exactly to put the embryos. They decided to do it along with a sonogram so I had to drink two bottles of water so my bladder could fill up enough to see. So we waited forever while digestion did its thing and when they came to check, they couldn't really see much. So they looked and apparently my "cervix takes a nosedive". There is like a 90 degree angle in my uterus. He said its not a problem, but most of them are straight on. So it was a good thing they decided to do it with the sonogram. He said they have to put a stitch in there. So when they do the retrieval, he will put it in and "pull a string to straighten out the uterus" when they do the transfer. It was kind of painful today but luckily they said they will give me some drugs the day of the transfer to calm my nerves and help with the pain. I couldn't help but be upset on my way home thinking that so many other people out there that have fun conceiving. They have some recreational sex and BAM, pregnant. On the other hand, I have to give myself tons of injections multiple times every day, go through some pretty painful tests and procedures, get sonograms every other day (literally), and pay thousands of dollars. And all that is just to get pregnant! When I was laying on the bed feeling a "slight pinch", I just had to go to my happy place. Today, that place was at home sitting with a baby in my arms.
All of this IVF stuff is so overwhelming. We just have to take it one day at a time.