Just what I needed to hear

So this past weekend was General Conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. According to lds.org, General Conference is defined as, "a semiannual gathering of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. During general conference weekend, Church members and others who are interested gather worldwide in a series of two-hour sessions to receive inspiration and instruction from Church leaders."
On Saturday morning we watched the speakers at our house (with homemade pumpkin bread, might I add). That afternoon, we went to my parents house to watch it there. A talk was given that touched my heart. He talked about the importance of children and not putting off having kids. Similar talks have been given but his took a turn when he said:

The bearing of children can also be a heartbreaking subject for righteous couples who marry and find that they are unable to have the children they so anxiously anticipated or for a husband and wife who plan on having a large family but are blessed with a smaller family.

We cannot always explain the difficulties of our mortality. Sometimes life seems very unfair—especially when our greatest desire is to do exactly what the Lord has commanded. As the Lord’s servant, I assure you that this promise is certain: “Faithful members whose circumstances do not allow them to receive the blessings of eternal marriage and parenthood in this life will receive all promised blessings in the eternities, [as] they keep the covenants they have made with God.”

I couldn't hold back the tears.
Growing up in the church, we are taught the importance of families and children from the time we are little. I have taught the youth of the church for the last 3-4 years and I have, at times, felt like a hypocrite. I always wanted children, but I wasn't having any and there I was teaching them that their greatest callings would be to become mothers one day. Would I ever be a mother? What kind of example was that? When we got married, the question always came, "when are you going to start having kids?" That is one of the most hurtful things you could say to somebody who wants kids but can't have them. First of all, it's none of your business. Secondly, I want to start now but the Lord has a different plan for me.
There have been so many times that I have been in the darkest of moments and have questioned whether or not God wanted me to be a mother. I wondered if He heard my prayers. I wondered if He forgot about me. I was asking for something righteous but the prayers still went unanswered. Once Elder Anderson said this, I realized that He does know me and love me. He obviously thought I was strong enough to go through this trial so it was up to me to step up and do the best I could.
I realized how lucky we really are to be having a child. I know that our journey with fertility is probably not over. We do want more children but it could take us another 3 years to get to that point. Since there hasn't been any real diagnosis, we are not sure what the future holds, but I know that I can do it. I know that the Lord trusts me with this mortal trial. My heart goes out to those out there who are still trying to become parents. I know it is hard, but the Lord has promised us that we can receive all the promised blessings in the eternities.

I have never heard a talk given at Conference that regarded infertility but I am so glad that we are led by divine inspiration for trials that are current. I know that God loves each of His children, even me. I know that He hears my prayers, even though sometimes it feels like I'm alone. I don't know why I am blessed enough to have a child now, but I am so humbly grateful to be given this opportunity.